I Have a 1 Year Old Now?!

CLARA!! You turned 1 yesterday at 1:38pm. (5.15.14)

     It was a REALLY tough day...  But instead of being a Debbie Downer I chose to celebrate your life and I baked you a cake:

And decorated it:

(no I have never decorated a cake before)

And got to see your beautiful face via FaceTime:

^Laugh crying from excitement of seeing you^

^Singing Happy Birthday to you^

I cannot believe it's been 1 YEAR!!! Happy Birthday Clara Jane. Your birth mommy loves you!!! I wish I could write more but I can't stop crying. Happy Birthday, my love!!

(ALL PICTURES ARE OWNED BY ELIZABETH LARSON)

Love You, And I Mean It,

Birth-Mom Biz

P.S. I made you that banner to put over each birthday cake I buy/make for you since sometimes you won't be there to blow out any candles!

The Bitter-Sweet

     Clara Jane, I find myself crying over you quite often lately. Your first birthday is just 4 days away, not even, because the day is almost over. I feel all the same emotions I did last year.

Bitter-Sweet, is the only way to describe it.

    I cannot stop crying. I just want to lay in bed and cry and wonder how the hell I will get through this. It's so hard. So hard...

Love You, And I Mean It,
Birth-Mommy Biz

You at about 2 days old: