Everyone asks "what does it feel like to be pregnant?" honestly, it cant be explained other than: it feels like someones living inside of you... thats what's happening!
Pregnancy is amazing. Other than the heartburn, morning sickness, and constant feet in the ribs. ;)
Having a precious baby be inside of you for 9 months is the most incredible feeling ever... I know some women struggle to conceive and I cant imagine the pain that brings. Not physical pain but emotional pain. Not being able to have babies would be horrifying for most women, so in my situation I feel and am so blessed to be able to carry such an amazing blessing and gift from Heavenly Father. I have so much respect for women who cannot conceive. Some couples, or women, go different routes when they cant. Some go to fertility specialists and doctors to see what they can do to be able to carry a precious baby. I don't know much about that subject but I 100% respect it. Others go the route of Adoption. Adoption is an amazing thing. Its not a "goodbye." its a "see you soon." In some cases people decide to have a closed adoption, and thats totally fine. In my case, I chose an open adoption. I wanted an open adoption because I wanted to see my baby grow up. In closed adoptions you don't get pictures or visitations... I needed that. This is my baby I want to see her grow up and become a beautiful, mature, loving woman.
Back to pregnancy. Feeling her kick is the most amazing thing. Although it gets annoying to have her feet in my ribs, its pretty cool. She's this tiny little thing and to feel how strong she is... makes me proud in a way. To think that I created this amazing... creature. A human being. With arms and fingers and legs and toes. Its an amazing thing. By no means am I bragging about this. Its just the thoughts that I have.
I feel in a way honored to carry this gift because I am blessing a couple. Not only a couple but an AMAZING family. They're perfect and I feel so comfortable around them. Which is how it should be. They're family now. I think about family get-togethers and how those will be when I am invited. To see my baby with an amazing, beautiful family, laughing and playing with her cousins. I love to think of that. It sometimes makes my heart ache because I know how much I want that to be my family she's playing and giggling with but, I cannot provide for her.
Her Mommy and Daddy are two amazing people. They are both so smart and beautiful. Her Daddy is just finishing college and graduating soon! I know this might be weird to say, but I'm so proud of him!! I can't imagine college! It seems so tough ;) When he plays with his nieces and nephews its the cutest thing! He is going to be a great daddy! Her mommy is a photographer and also works for her husband's work. She is so talented and has the best taste in clothes ;) (I wish I had her closet!!!) hahaha, aside from the jokes... she's a really smart woman! She is going to be an amazing mommy. Her love for children shows through her smile when she's with them. We went and got ice cream with some of their family and she was just looking at her nieces faces with the sweetest smile... It brought tears to my eyes! I know she is going to be the most amazing mommy. She is so gentle and loving. I love these two people and their family so much...
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